why i dont wear makeup

doctor ik i said i we need makeup to look prestetable or wtv but honesly i forgot how to do my makeup and it just looks horrendes and like cakey or wtv.Am also very dumb because i would buy foundation just to waste it like in 2 weeks and i defently spent like 1000 just ont foundation which is bad i aslo think ita embarresing pulling up in a full face like i dont know why but thtas embarrsing .Alsi wearing lashes is embarrsing like ive worn some but they were hella small and they were clusters so they looked even smaller which i liked but idk if imma ever wear some to shcool.Also i have like dry skin so even concelaer looks cakey as hell so i just stick to concelar under like my eyes.I also stoped straighting my hair for summer and i only straighten it in the winter.