Encouragement

I don't really know I am truly. These days I have been feeling a little different about the way I feel. I always think I'm failing on almost everything because I can't let go of the past I put my parents and sister through. For an example, a line piece of paper is the turst. Once you rip, you can put it together and fix it the way it was. But is it really fixed. Not really. Not everthing is fixed. And something you don't notice is missing. The paper could be taped together. Yet, the ripped paper still looked rip as it looked before it was ripped. I am doing better. I am happy. I still feel it inside me though. I get flashbacks about it. Sometimes I would overthink about it or realize what I had done before. Even though no matter I am doing fine right now. That piece of ripped mark on the paper will never go away. I can't control my anger. The anger I can't let go. A way for me to take it out to just blame it on myself and what I have done. I feel bad for taking it out on my loved ones. I didn't mean it at all. I know it hurts them. I really made a lot of mistakes which adds up more and makes it worse. I really wish I can let go of it. I wish I can go back all the way from the beginnig from where it started. I would make everything better. Becoming a teenager is an age where it gets complicated. It's where you have to start worrying about so much things. Even when your attitude starts to change more. I'm not saying a really bad attitude but teenagers go through many things. We are only kids. We don't mean to disappointment parents. We just don't know everything. We may not be the best children. At least, we have the brains to choose going to college.