yeah i admit im jealous.I want my mom. I HATE looking at everyone and their close relationships with their parents ESPECIALLY their moms. I want that. I want to have someone who will guide me down the right path and someone who can be both my mom and my best friend and someone who i can count on no matter what. Im just gonna say it. I hate my mom(ihmm). I hate her for the things she did. I hate her for just leaving me for a relationship that went down hill. All of the guys shes been with just never ends good. She either gets hurt, ghosts everyone, or is just in desperate need of someone. I feel bad for her. I mean yeah i blame her for everything shes put me through but its not all her fault. Her mom did the same thing to her so i can see how she didn't have someone who could help her or just be there to show her whats right and whats wrong. The only time she actually comes to see me is whenever she feels like it. And the last time i saw her was a couple of months ago but i said nothing to her because she was with the guy who abused us. That story is for another time but i just dont get why she could put everyone else above me except her own child.