So to me Family is everything like nothing can top it. My best friends are like my family as well. So when you lose one it's like losing a family member and that hurts a lot. Not like losing like DEATH I mean like when a friend and you have a falling out. There's a deep gut feeling that you could never shake and you wanna move on but it's hard. When they move one first and you see them with someone that was just as close to them as you where. That hurts. It the worse feeling in the world that that forgot about you and everything you've been through.