I miss y with my whole heart. Although I had a difficult relationship with him I really did love and care for him. When y died I think apart of me died with him. When he died I felt so numb to the point where I literally did not know how to feel. Y was always a laughing person he was rarely ever mad. My biggest regret with Y was not writing back to him when he wrote me letters. He even sent stamps with one of my letters so I could write to him but I never used them. Y was someone you could always rely on. The way he died makes me physically sick. I wish things were different. I really miss him.