not a lot of people talk about this which is sad because i feel like it should be talked about more but after certain relationships getting treated really bad and then you get use to it and you start to blame yourself for things that are not even your fault and then when someone treats you right you overthink it all and you dont let them get close to you at all and it all ends up a big mess and then you end up losing someone who was willing to give you the world but life goes on all i could really say is try your best to learn from your mistakes and keep your head up and never give you and its ok not to be ok and your never alone remember that you have a bunch of people who love and care about it .