i went to a tournament this weekedn and we lost all our games. ir was so embarrassing and im still not allowed to play and ij was kind f upsry. at times it kinda seems that like aint nobody be caring but like lowkey like i just wanna play im so proud about and of my team but i just miss being out there with them and i feel like i could hepl them out and i ahve high hopes but i cant wait to get back in there.  i just wihs i could go back like now bu ttheyre not going to let me until the week we leave the reno but like im probably not even going to play in reno so i dont even know. im keep controlling what i can and doing what i can to get back there as soon as possible and actually be ok when i go back and not super sluggish and like tired and stuff but we will see. only time can tell.